Because he ruined my entire weekend
#why do i care
I have become so deeply numb to my accustomed suitors.
Or those that once were.
One of you feels guilty,
pouring out all of your feelings for me
when whiskey and long islands attach themselves
to your breath
"I’d be fine with us pretending that never happened"
Another will play like it’s all
just some game in my heart
"Did you lie to me about breaking up with your girlfriend?"
My past 2 years of living only know affection
of drunkards’ ramblings
knowing I’ll always be there.
they could’ve had me
if they really wanted it.
I’ve decided to stop caring about whether or not I love someone that loves me back. I’m going to love them until I run out of love.
Then I’m never going to love them again.
"Just because I didn’t beg for you doesn’t mean I didn’t want you to stay."
I Didn’t Let You Go Without a Fight (#689: October 7, 2014)
"Three years later, a new girl sits cross-legged on your bed.
She tastes like a different flavor of bubblegum than you are used to.
She opens up a book that you had to read in high school, and a folded picture of us falls out of chapter three.
Now there are two unfinished stories resting in her lap.
Inevitably, she asks, and you tell her.
You say: I dated her a while back.
You don’t say: Sometimes, when I’m holding you, I imagine the smell of her vanilla perfume.
You say: She was younger than me.
You don’t say: The sixteen summers in her bones warmed the eighteen winters my skin had weathered.
You say: It’s nothing now.
You don’t say: But it was everything then."
"I’ll marry someone who knows how I take my tea, coffee, and alcohol
And knows when to make which."
"I can’t be shaken anymore, by anyone. I’ve got to that point in my life that if you’re not a good person, and you can’t make me feel good with love and life, then fuck off, basically."